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CARLINA DUAN is a writer from Michigan. She is the author of the poetry collection I WORE MY BLACKEST HAIR (Little A, 2017). Her poems can be found in Black Warrior Review, Tinderbox Poetry Journal, Tupelo Quarterly, The Margins, and elsewhere. She is currently the Co-Editor-in-Chief of Nashville Review, and an MFA Candidate in Poetry at Vanderbilt University, where she teaches Poetry. She has a sweet tooth. Find her at

2 poems

by Carlina Duan




always hurled out an open car door. from a bus stop. a door handle

opening to a friend’s home. her parents set the table. bone

china and a polished casserole dish. always, the picture book splayed

open, revealing an illustrated apple, black seeds, gnawed over

by caterpillars. always my face, which is not enough.

my tongue, which curls and curls and remains tethered.

letters coiled like grape vines around the tip. roman

alphabet digging at the space between my gums. consonants

dropped like bricks, I chew their weight. always some man

telling me what I am, what we already know. say it right / say

it / say— can you read / can you speak / English / English / yes,

no. in this story, always, I am jumping over parts, skipping

them. can you see me. can you see. I entered the car and turned

off the engine. I looked into his face. I opened my mouth and let

it all roll out: a spell, an incantation, hiss / miss / fist / a caterpillar

slung off a silken web. today I am what I always am. girl. thistle.

my mouth closing, closed again. and when I swallow, watch

where the spit goes. down a throat, a chest, a rib. watch

me flex a wrist, witness it. this sly, unbreakable bone.




men make jump shots and leave blue ink on the pads of my fingers.

there are years of sweet grass. there are years where I dance alone

on a court made of asphalt, and baba tells me to remember I am

great. the fish in the sea splash their teeny tails and cannot touch

me. I’m unstoppable! clogs on my feet, my wingspan stretched

out to the treetops. remembering I descend from a man who once

drove me through the entire car wash: soap suds lingering over

the frame of the car, wiping away crusts of bird shit, dirt, the even

hum of the engine as it propelled us forward, forward, and even then,

I loved to watch a machine grow clean, cleaner. I loved to watch

my baba at the wheel, talking about zebra fish in dishes of cool

water. here I am now, darting between pages — photographs of men

wearing capes that say CHAMPION, only I’m the champion now,

rich with sweat. rich as a daughter can be: watching her father’s

mouth open into a small pearl as the Chinese opera disc spins. on

the page, the ball falls into the hoop. and he begins, off-key, to sing.

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