purple_full_leaves.png

1 poem
by Sylvan Spring

Sylvan Spring is a writer, DJ, and public servant living in Aotearoa making work about deep emotion and their butthole. They are currently working on a Masters of Creative Writing at the IIML, Victoria University. You can find them on Instagram @cocteau____twink.

AFFIRMATIONS FOR YOUR HEAVENLY TRANS BODY

with thanks to the Huffpost article "35 Affirmations That Will Change Your Life"

I ACKNOWLEDGE MY OWN SELF-WORTH, MY CONFIDENCE IS PLUMMETING

 

MY BODY IS NOT WHAT I WANT IT TO BE; MY MIND IS RIDDLED WITH DISQUIET; MY SOUL IS TENOUSLY CONNECTED

 

I HAVE BEEN GIVEN ENDLESS TALENTS WHICH I HAVE CHOSEN TO SQUANDER SO I CAN BLANKLY WATCH THE OFFICE IN BED

 

EVERYTHING THAT IS HAPPENING NOW IS FOR MY ULTIMATE GOOD

 

TODAY, I AM BRIMMING WITH WATERMELON-FLAVOURED PALS AND OVERFLOWING WITH DEMORALISATION

 

I AM DEEPLY AT ODDS WITH ALL THAT HAS HAPPENED, IS HAPPENING AND WILL HAPPEN

 

I POSSESS THE QUALITIES I NEED TO BE EXTREMELY DISSATISFIED WITH MY LIFE

 

MY INTERNALISED TRANSPHOBIA IS GROWING, EXPANDING AND THRIVING

 

 

 

I WAKE UP TODAY WITH PARALYSING INDECISION IN MY MIND AND CLARITY IN MY HEART

 

THOUGH THESE TIMES ARE DIFFICULT, THEY ARE SHORT

 

TODAY, I ABANDON MY OLD HABITS AND TAKE UP NEW ONES

 

I AM THE ARCHITECT OF MY OWN BODY, I CONSTRUCT ITS GENDER AND CHOOSE ITS DAYTIME SITCOM SOUNDTRACK

 

I DESERVE TO BE UNDERSTOOD, OR AT LEAST RESPECTFULLY MISUNDERSTOOD

 

MY FUTURE IS AN IDEAL PROJECTION I CANNOT ENVISION

 

 

 

NOTHING CAN DIM THE LIGHT THAT SHINES FROM WITHIN MY BUSSY

 

I FORGIVE MY TITS AND PEACEFULLY DETACH FROM THEM

 

 

 

MANY PEOPLE LOOK UP TO ME AND RECOGNISE MY HOTNESS WITH HORNY ABANDON

 

MY EFFORTS ARE BEING SUPPORTED BY THE UNIVERSE, MY DREAMS MANIFEST INTO HOT ANDROGYNOUS PEOPLE WHO WANT TO FUCK ME

 

TOP ENERGY SURGES THROUGH ME AND LEADS ME TO NEW AND BRILLIANT WAYS TO FUCK

 

THE PERFECT PARTNER FOR ME DOES NOT EXIST, I AM OPEN TO HAVING MANY T4T ROMANTIC ENTANGLEMENTS THAT END ORGANICALLY WHEN THEY NEED TO

 

 

 

I AM BLESSED WITH WONDERFUL FRIENDS WHO APPRECIATE THE TASTEFUL NUDES I SEND THEM

 

I AM COURAGEOUS AND CORRECT PEOPLE WHEN THEY MISGENDER MY FRIENDS

 

 

 

I AM MAKING FRIENDS WITH MY INTERNALISED TRANSPHOBIA, ASKING IT GENTLE QUESTIONS EACH DAY

 

I AM SUPERIOR TO TERFS AND THEIR NEGATIVE THOUGHTS AND LOW ACTIONS

 

THE CIS-HETS ARE MOVING OUT OF MY WAY, MY PATH IS CARVED TOWARDS GREATNESS

 

 

 

MY THOUGHTS ARE FILLED WITH NEW PROSPECTS AND MY LIFE IS ABUNDANT WITH DELIGHTFUL UNORTHODOXY

 

MY RENEWED CONNECTION TO MY FEMININITY IS BECOMING STRONGER, DEEPER AND MORE STABLE EACH DAY

 

A RIVER OF COMPASSION FOR THE TROUBLED CISSIES WASHES AWAY MY ANGER AND REPLACES IT WITH LOVE

 

 

 

I RADIATE AND WILL ALWAYS RADIATE TRANSNESS

 

I AM GUIDED IN EVERY STEP BY MY TRANS ELDERS

 

MY NATURE IS DIVINE, I AM A SPIRITUAL BEING

 

I AM A POWERHOUSE, I AM INDESTRUCTIBLE

 

MY LIFE IS JUST BEGINNING